Well here it is! I have been thinking about a starting a blog for awhile and have thought what in the hell am I going to write about. So after much thought and wonderful feedback from wonderfully supportive friends....I'm writin' about me- But I do have a purpose behind it, a couple actually.
What I have noticed in the past few years is that we seem to be focused solely on our differences as human beings. Race....African American, Asian American, Mexican American...., gender...female, male, transgendered,......... political association.....Republican, Democrat, Tea Party (yuck!),.... sexual orientation....gay, straight, lesbian, queer, I'm sure there are other labels now...., blah blah blah. I think this is only half the story. I hope I can provide the other half. Human beings are more the same than different and when we overly-celebrate differences, people feel isolated and when things happen to them, they believe that no one else experiences moods, issues, problems, etc. the same way that they do. When people feel isolated, they don't seek help because then they are afraid of being judged or weird or not normal. This happens to me sometimes too. So I figure that if things happen to me, they have to happen to others.
I have a pretty healthy vocabulary and can articulate my feelings and thoughts well. I also know that some people cannot do this. My hope is that people identify with my experiences and they feel less alone and more able to label their own. Maybe someone will think "Yeah that happens to me" and will feel some relief or empowered to speak out or up. And I will write about how I get over things or cope with things, which is not always healthy or helpful for that matter. I am a passionate person so I would think that there are things that I am going to say that you won't like. That's fine with me. I can tolerate it. Additionally, I like the fact that I can talk about me. I value my thoughts and feelings and because of my job, which is highly rewarding, some of me gets put on the back burner. Not here-
So what I promise to you is: full honesty, uncensored honesty, and hopefully some laughs! I promise to end each blog with great quotes, great according to me, and I promise to write just like I talk. Those of you that know me can hopefully hear my voice with all the animation in it :)
Let's meet the main characters in my unscripted story: 1 man and 3 dogs (how do I have 3 dogs?)
Casey, my boyfriend, my partner in crime, my healer
Fozzy: Stubborn and Smart
Gunnar: Can barely urinate without me telling him to do so
Brownning: Newest member of the fam, skittish, and a beating half of the time
I love all of them and we fit very well together. What am I feeling right now? Irresponsible, like a bad dog owner. Oh and I am not one of those people that think my dogs are my kids...no, no, no ,no, no. I would be in trouble if I put my kids in the backyard because they were bugging the shit out of me. And what is up with dog owners cooking their dogs dinner? That is stupid. Do they really have that much time on their hands?
So as I sit and type this, I am very aware of the fact that I have been at work all day and my dogs probably want to play. This usually incites guilt in me, but I am choosing not to feel guilty right now. I am also feeling pressure to keep shit together and going. Case is working in Arizona now in BFE (that's Butt-fucking Egypt for you younger peeps, does the younger generation even say that anymore?) and working, taking care of the dogs, and doing all the house shit is a lot for me. I feel like a puss even saying that with other people I know managing A LOT more. But again, it's true- So when Case is gone the word for my life is BALANCE. Let's see if I can do it!
To end the Beginning, I want to acknowledge the fact that my ideas for helping others are dependent on you, the reader. I am depending on you to spread the word about this blog. I am also depending on you for feedback. What do you think? How do you balance everything in your life? We have an opportunity to be the Master of technology here instead of a slave to it. We can use this to help people and unite us. We can celebrate our sameness, show compassion to others and hopefully ourselves.
"When you aim for perfection, you will find it is a moving target"- Anonymous
